I'm sorry about not finishing my communication to you on 8/14/03. I can't even remember where I WAS at , so I'll just restate my appreciation for all the courageous work you've done to this point. It must have been very difficult for you at times, I know from experience. Many times in the past when I was making some change in my life that my handlers didn't approve of all hell broke lose and I got to watch their methods for re-directing me back to the place they wanted. This was truly the mind control part of the experience.I've experienced much of their stuff and its applications but not some of the extreme things you talk about. But, I believe they are true based on the power they're using.
I have pretty much experienced all you mentioned with the harassment part or their program. I've also experienced the physical things that you have mentioned. However, there are some key physical things you are not mentioning on your web sight that might help other victims.
This e-mail is just set up for correspondence with you I hope you will contact me on it at some point I would love to talk to you about the spiritual aspects of this experience and how turning to God and a greater picture can help the victims get thru the experience.
Love and Light God is working in everything all the time. Please email me.
I have been subjected to torture since about 1984 and I never know how bad it will be. My body has been ravaged my mind my emotions all been put through living hell.But the one thing that held on thru it all is my spirit. It never failed me ever always leading me to the peace I needed next to transition thru and past [above if you will] there bull. I thank God for that.
I have learned that I am much more than my body or my mind that this is a temporary experience at best that we are all immortal and nothing is ever separated from God, ever, all is God and God is working to realize his end in all things everywhere all the time.
God loves us all even the ones that have misdirected his inspiration, which he allows to be but is still working through there miss-direction. Without the torture I would not have searched like I did.
I have learned patience humility restraint discipline. I have learned about my ego and my mind and their selfishness and self importance. Most important God has been made real to me and I have found my personal relationship with him. All this because of the suffering. So you see God is working all the time in truly mysterious ways and I'm the living proof. That's the message I want you to get out to the other victims that there is a way to get thru it to transcend to not give up but to open up to God and find out what its about for them. Yes, its suffering but in the suffering what can they realize in their deepest nature to free them in that moment of trial.
Yes, some times its so bad all you can do is ride it out but where does that take you do you stay with him in love or go somewhere else some dark place that is not of his true nature these are the test we are presented with our faith is being challenged from an out side force evil is upon us but what and who are we going to be in the presence of evil.
Praise god for your strength and courage It them must be brought out into the light people do need to know this must be stopped but while were in the process of that awareness let us rest in his arms and find the comfort that is ours from him. I am in his light as are you I never have let go and neither have you we never stop our spirits wont let us thank god
I have more to share with you I hope you could relate to my God talk as I feel there is more. God wants me to tell those that are suffering with this nightmare.
But today I want to share with you some of the things I've experienced with the beam some or all of which I would like you to share with other's on your web sight .
These are most of the things I've experienced in the past 20 years.
LIKE AND THESE ARE THE THINGS I WOULD LIKE YOU TO LIST ON THE WEB
- Blurred vision
- Puffy around the Kidneys, usually with low back pain,
- Low back pain
- Abdominal bloating
- Other unusual stomach problems digestive in nature
- Poor coordination
- Induced emotions
- mostly anxiety but not limited to fear
- Paranoia
- Anger
- Frustration
- Depression
- Elation especially if your control wants to interact with you
- Fuzzy thinking
- Loss of logic and reason can't do math, balance check book ect. Can't problem solve
- Fatigue, fatigue, fatigue
- Disrupted sleep patterns, no sleep for days (This seems to be how they start everyone off)
- No sleep
- Lack of sex drive or over drive to quench insatiatable thirst
- Obsessively driven with no satisfaction in sight (They love that one)
- These things could be attributives to some thing else but the usually happen in conjunction with other physical anomalies
We lived in a trailer and when they wanted us to go to bed and the aggravations didn't work they would freeze us into the bed many of you may wake up hot or cold in the mornings
- Air in the house is almost always bad stuffy
- Dirty air (go out side and smell the difference your house will be stuffy. The stuffier it is the harder your being jammed)
- Smells in the house will dissipate very slowly cooking smells etc
- Loud noise from electric motors (Tune in pay attention. Especially the refer it will just keep running and loud)
- Over head fans will whine
- VCR motors will squeal
- All electric motors will sound labored. (The worse they sound the harder your being hit.)
- Florescent lights will make more noise than usual
- Temp swings in the house ( house gets hot, house gets cold, heating, air conditioning does not help like it should)
- Sounds that penetrate the house cars trucks stereos etc. (Go outside and many times its louder in the house than outside)
- Ringing ears predominately in one ear but can and sometimes will change to both ears.
- Intensity levels can change pitch can changed ring with a pulse to it
- Low hum at night that keeps you awake.
- Excessive Dust in the house like you can't keep it clean.
- Things don't cook or bake right in the oven they take way longer than usual
We've had many a special meal ruined because of this it was weird
I'm tired that's all for now give me feed back cause I want to share with others how to make life more tolerable while under the beam they must know to seek every little thing that makes them feel normal cause stress is their biggest weapon there is much we can do to cut down on it May the Peace of God be with us all
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