After the phone call, I emailed to the man and remarked excitedly on the quality of the VOICE, thinking what a marvelous speaking voice he had. It was over a year before I knew it was hypnotism. I was and still am, unfamiliar with the tactics of hypnotizing a person, but I realize this is what happened. Then I wondered why he wrote me poems and other correspondence on the internet.He had convinced me he was a warlock and had these "powers". I really felt stupid when I found a mind control site, and learned people can order both instructional and mechanical equipment to both hypnotize and control people by suggestion and manipulation.
I was told one time, that a 'chip' would have to be placed in my body, with a control function- in order for another person to be responsible for the things of which I spoke. Unfortunately, hypnotism and far reaching transmissions (probably with the aid of a Ham radio) can do the same thing.
This is primarily a forced 'sex union' control. Otherwise, he would have no interest in me. A man retired by physical disability who is no longer able to seek 'affairs' in person, seeks them electronically. I have spoken to friends and family far and wide, and all I have gained for my efforts is pessimistic disbelief, or- I have been warned to be very careful to whom I reveal my symptoms- because they may have me put 'away'.
That is ridiculous. It is Criminal that I have to suffer because a man (or men) decided to USE me for their amusement and sexual gratification.
When I do not 'touch' myself- or other, as they order, I am pinched, punched, stuck with pins and sleep deprived for up to 40 hours. Then after just enough rest to live, I am sleep deprived again. How? You ask? I am given 'restless legs' and punched in the back, pins driven under my toenails and fingernails, extreme headaches, ears stopped up and then a horrible thump thump thump in my head, as if my heart were jumping out my ears. And there is NO ESCAPE from it.
Sometimes I stand straight up and scream and cry out to God. I walk around, go to my computer and become as engrossed as possible in a 'game'. Anything to save my life and sensibilities.
This has been ongoing for three years.
Doctors will not listen. They try to TEST me or send me to a psychiatrist.
And how do I tell the FBI? Or local police, either in my home or his home state? Do I just march in and say, "I am tormented. I am sexually assaulted, sodomized, sleep deprived, spied on and otherwish harassed." "Oh, but only I can feel it and I have never met the people who do it". That is not a scene I can see 'playing' very well. I would like very much to know what to do. For it is near to the end of my life.
All I have asked for, is to live my last years in peace.
Received 11-16-2003