A small child, 3 years old. Her parents don't know that her sitters are with the cult. They do not know what their kindly 'friends' are going to put her through. They know nothing of the insiders who are already forming. All through her childhood they think her withdrawn and moody but she is disabled and they figure it due to that in some way. They have no knowledge of the sexual and ritual abuse she is going through. For that matter neither does she know all of it. The pain only lasts so long then she is nowhere. She knows she is over the rainbow. Those that take over she has no knowledge of.She has a vague idea there are more of her. But she does not understand. She doesn't know what she has done wrong to be treated like this. She knows her grandfathers are Masons and Eastern Star and Golden Dawn and she knows they know what is happening to her even though her parents do not. She spends much time with her grandparents, they teach her many things. She often comes home from their place with no knowledge of what has happened. The same with the sitters. She knows that sometimes she goes to places where someone takes their new baby and she never sees the baby again. She cannot remember. she does not know what is dream and what is reality. All mixed up in her head. She sees films like The Wizard of Oz and Alice in Wonderland and Through the looking Glass, reads the books that have been purchased for her by her grandparents. The stories disturb her. She does not know that she has been programmed through these books/films. Those inside know though. Eventually someone finds out. She is in her late 20s before she realises what she is.
I cannot say more on here, for one I am too scared that the handlers will read or those that know. Cannot say what I am. We are afraid of the tinman. We know that those who are what we are will recognise us. We are assured this site is safe yet we remain afraid. We are still locked in our own nightmare world. Only now finding the courage to tell some others. Even then only anonymously. We know we need help with this yet there is noone we trust.
Received 08-18-2004